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The Importance of Headphones

You never realize what you have, or how much you take something for granted until it’s taken away from you.

I’m going through that right now… with my headphones.

Rewind a few years. I used to work the morning shift at my job and we were allowed to listen to music until the store opened. So everyday, for about four hours, I’d have my headphones in, either listening to music or a learn Spanish podcast. Then after work, I’d come home and write and put my headphones back in, cause I like to write with music.

All that headphone use turned out to be too much for my ears. After visiting the doctor this week for the second time, I was told that I have to give the headphones a rest for at least a month.

“But doc, are you saying I can never wear headphones again?” I asked frantically.

The doctor looked at me like it wasn’t a big deal at all.

But it’s a HUGE deal.

There is something so sacred about having your headphones in. The commute to school or work isn’t that bad, doing homework goes faster, that walk to your car becomes a dance, you walk with your back a bit straighter because a hardcore hip hop song is blasting in your ears and you feel like you’re the shit. It’s everything. It kept me alive working that morning shift.

There’s something satisfying about listening to music no one else can hear. A nod of your head becomes a dance, standing on the subway platform lipsycing your favorite song becomes the music video in your head, a slow jam can hit you a certain way on the subway and you burst in to tears. There’s that feeling that your iPod knows exactly the kind of songs you need to hear. You play all your jams when your happy, that make you smile super wide out in public, or the songs that match the shitty mood you’re in.

You put your headphones in so you don’t have to listen to the stupid teen conversations on the bus, hear the babies cry, tune out the crazy lady on the subway preaching about Jesus, when you’re bored in class, when you want to watch a show on your laptop late at night in bed.

Headphones are life. Music is life.

I honestly don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m going to have to learn to tune people out, find books that I can completely lose myself in so I can forget where I am and what my life is like. Walks will feel longer, the subway rides louder, the day a whole lot lonelier.

I’m already counting down the days. The first week of April, I will be the girl on the subway with big, ear muff like headphones in, grinning like an idiot because I have my music back.


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How To Make It… So Far

The second season of How to Make it In America is halfway over. Hard to believe since season two just started at the beginning of October, but there’s only eight episodes in the season and this Sunday’s episode was number four. I was loving season two so far, I thought it was funnier, sharper and I enjoyed the character development, but this week’s episode was a disappointment for me because I think I’m getting a bit too obsessed with this show.

One of my complaints about this new season is that it’s too plot driven. Last season, episodes were more character driven. My favorite episode from season one was Rachel’s birthday and the boys took Kappo to Avenue. Nothing plot wise happened in that episode, it was just about this super cool crew hanging out. This season, it’s all about the various plots. Ben and Cam trying to get Crisp off the ground, Cam trying to get with Lulu, Domingo and Rachel’s new romance, Rene trying to hype up Rasta Monsta and now Kappo dealing with the law. There’s a lot packed in to thirty minutes now.

The storyline that I’m enjoying the most is Rene’s. Rasta Monsta was one of the biggest storylines in season one, and now that Ben and Cam are doing other things, it’s just Rene and his team. I love his new girlfriend, Debbie,  who brings out a different side to him. It will be interesting to see what happens to him, now that he’s leaning more towards the criminal side. I also really like Rachel and Domingo together. It’s a weird couple, they bonded over weed, but I like them together. Rachel is stressed out and Domingo is chill. It works. But this week Ben found out and he was not happy about it.

I have to say, Ben has become such a douchebag this season. I used to love him, and now he’s so… arrogant. He acts like he’s the main guy behind Crisp and just seems to be feeling himself a little too much. Same with Cam, who is trying so damn hard to get with Lulu. Who is this Lulu chick and why does he like her so much? I mean, it’s cute to see him flirt and try to come up to win this girl but who is she? Where did she come from? How does she know the whole crew? Maybe I’m hating on the girl because I love Cam, but I don’t see the chemistry between them.

Like I said before, I think I’m way too in to this show. I need to take a step back and realize it’s just a show, they’re not real people and it may not last beyond this season. There are still four more episodes to go, and considering that out of the first four, I only didn’t like one episode, it’s still my favorite show. I just need to tone down my obsession.

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Technology Slump

Just this week it became so apparent to me that all of the electronic things that I own and use everyday are so out of date. I’m so behind the times and it’s frustrating because really, my electronics are not that old.

It first hit me this weekend when I thought the connector to plug my iPod in to my car was busted. The radio station I usually used wasn’t playing my music so I decided to look at some new ones and possibly buy a new one. The cheapest ones in the store were just two cables you could plug in to the AUX jack of your car and play your iPod directly from the speakers. I looked all over my car, convinced I had to have one, I have a 2006 Toyota, but no AUX jack. Only newer cars have it. How frustrating! So to solve my technology problem, yesterday I sat in the car with my iPod connected, slowly checking each radio station until I found one that worked. My five year old car was too old for a good iPod connector.

That’s not the only problem. The basement in my house is equipped like it’s 2000. We still have a VHS player, and mountains and mountains of VHS tapes (they’re my treasures, I refuse to throw them away). We do have a DVD player, but it’s about eight years old. No flat screen TV, but a huge boxy one that I hate. My mother refuses to buy a PVR. The thought of being able to tape shows without using a tape blows my mind. Just this morning I was watching some commercial advertising a PVR, they said you could tape a show on one TV and watch it on another in a different room. I was like WOW! It’s so sad.

My laptop is about four years old, and still working pretty well (knock on wood), but I’m not ruling out the fact that it could die on me at any moment. I’m going to start the process of backing up over 1000 pictures on an external hard drive.

It’s insane how fast technology moves. If something is 2-3 years old, it’s almost obsolete. My camera broke while I was in Punta Cana, I took it in to possibly get it fixed and they didn’t even make the parts for it any more. I got that camera in 2007. The technology moves so fast, it’s impossible to keep up and stay current. My iPod Touch is just over a year old, and it’s considered 3rd generation. If I want a case for it, I have to get it online cause they don’t even have it in the stores.

I guess I’ve come to terms with all of my old electronics, but I’m still working on that PVR. Either I break my mom down to get one, or I’m moving out!

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My life is now categorized as Before Punta Cana and After Punta Cana. Yeah, that trip really was that amazing. Been home for almost a month now, and I’ve realized something pretty startling.

I’m addicted to iced coffees.

Before Punta Cana, I’d have about two or three a week, not bad considering how I used to have four or five a week about a year ago. I thought I cut down a lot. I thought I had it under control. Every Friday I’d have one for sure, to congratulate myself for getting through the week still sane. Then I’d have another one on the weekend if I was at the mall, or in the middle of the week if I felt like a treat, and I’d always let myself have one when I was feeling sad. There’s nothing like the taste of an iced coffee to make me snap out of a bad funk. The only problem was the size of my belly. I work out a lot, hit the gym about four times a week, but this belly would not go away. I couldn’t figure out why.

Then I went to Punta Cana and lost about five pounds in a week. There were a lot of things that I didn’t eat while I was there, and iced coffees was the most obvious one. There was no Starbucks on the beach.

So now that I’m home, I’m determined not to have one. It was probably a big reason why I was continually fat, and I want to keep these pounds off. But I had no idea it would be so damn hard. I think about having an iced coffee every single day. My wallet is extra heavy from all the change I’m not using to buy a frappuccino. I work right beside a Starbucks and the smell of the delicious coffee drives me absolutely insane.

I’m an addict going through detox.

It’s been over a month now since I’ve had any kind of coffee. It has not gotten easier. Every day I think that I should just give in and drink one, but the guilt is too strong. My whole family is watching me, rooting for me to keep this up and stop all together. I know having an iced cap would taste so sweet, but the guilt afterwards would kill me. I even went so far to look up the calorie counts online to justify it to myself, and it didn’t work.

I’m accepting the fact that I’m an addict. I hope the craving for caffeine goes away before I break down and go to Starbucks.

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A Week Without Internet Changed Me

I’ve been home from Punta Cana for a week, and I still think about it constantly. I feel lighter, even though I’m coming back to the same life that had me so miserable. Because I had that week away from it, now I feel like I can handle it and things will get better. But what changed the most was living for seven whole days without a phone, or Internet.

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Not A Lot Going On

I apologize for the lack of posts. It’s not like I haven’t been wracking my brain everyday thinking of something I could write about and constantly coming up with nothing. There’s not much going on in my life that I could discuss, I barely write fiction anymore so I can’t talk about that. In pop culture all of the interesting things that have happened the past few weeks are things I’ve already discussed. Chris Brown was in the news and everyone knows how I feel about him, I’m sick of writing about him and defending him. Other writers have done it much better. Britney Spears new album came out this week and she gave an awful performance on Good Morning America that just broke my heart. But I already wrote a post about how she can’t dance.

So I will write about the random things I’m in to and not so in to right now.

Of course Chris Brown’s F.A.M.E album has been in heavy rotation both on my iPod and in my car. It’s probably his best album, the standout track being “She Ain’t You” which samples “Human Nature” by Michael Jackson. But I’m not writing about Breezy.

I jumped for joy when I heard that Fringe has been picked up for a fourth season. It’s my favorite show on TV and pretty much the only scripted show I watch. I would have been devastated if it was canceled.

For some reason I really like this video.

I’ve barely written fiction in 2011 and I barely read any good fiction, which is so unlike me. A few weeks ago I hit up the bookstore and dropped some money on some black fiction. The first one I decided to read was “How Stella Got Her Groove Back” which I have never read. I love some of Terry McMillan’s stuff, but I absolutely hate this book. I’m struggling to get through it. It’s so disappointing, cause it’s sort of a classic from the 90’s. I’m not having great luck with good books this year!

It’s confirmed that I’m going to Washington DC at the end of April with some friends. It should be a good time. If anyone knows any DC hot spots we should hit up, let me know.

I will try so hard to post more often, but I need topics. Hopefully there will be more to come!

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They Don’t Dance…Anymore

In the past two weeks, I was super excited to see the brand new videos from Britney Spears and Jennifer Lopez. Both of them are artists that are in heavy rotation in my iPod and have made videos with dance moves that I can still do to this day. They both released dance singles and I was excited to see some new choreography from two of the best female dancers. Except neither of them danced in their videos.

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